MOMENTS

Moments... That is what I have had this week. This week has been TCAP week at work and if you are a school teacher, those words are just plain nasty. It is a week where children no matter the age have to be quiet even of they are not testing and hardly no outside time because all " fun" stuff can not happen. Yeah, those moments!!

The week started off with me taking Paislee to a ........( guess what) doctor! Yep you have it! We just went to Vanderbilt last week and this weekend we develop an ear infection and also found out she has a cyst above her heart surgery incision.  Now any mother would hate that their little baby has an ear infection, but in our house... That's not that bad..... but I am worried about the cyst. The doctor said we would have to have a surgeon drain it or cut it out... So guess what? Yep, right again.... Another doctor. Paislee has to have scope testing done and biopsies on her sinuses and lungs Monday, so we have to see our favorite cardiologist that morning to look at the cyst.... It's one thing after another... ( MOMENTS)  Yesterday, Sawyer walked at daycare, but has not walked at home. Thankfully, we have a great daycare with a great staff and were lucky that one of the girls got it on video. Some of you have seen it, but I need it in my blog to save it forever, and it is a joyous MOMENT

We have three more weeks of school left and then my " little girl" will be through with prek and be ready for KINDERGARTEN!!  Time really does fly!! 

( another great MOMENT)

As I lay with my babies at night, I realize that we have come so far and each of those moments we have with our children ( good or bad) are what makes us parents. 

Yes, I hate that we have to drive back and forth to Vanderbilt every other week it seems. I hate that we have to have surgery after surgery. I hate I don't get to have much time with my little Sawyer due to those many appointments. I hate that I have not had rest in no telling how long because my daughter wakes me up two and three times a night because she is sick or who knows why?

I am a parent and I want what is best for my children. I want the best doctors and that is why I drive. I want the best medical treatment for my child because I want to give her the best life possible. That is why we have so many appointments. I want her to have a full life. 

People have said to me lately, " I don't see how you do it and how you deal with it."  My answer is always the same. " You just do because there is no other choice." I look at the bright side of things. Those many trips I have taken to Nashville are moments I have spent quality time with my child. I can sing the whole soundtrack to the movie " FROZEN" Since it has been Easter time, I have also learned the song " New Again" by Brad Paisley and Sara Evans and my child sings Mary and I sing Jesus. She even wears Sawyer's blanket to get into the role. 

 If I ever have friends that have children that go to Vanderbilt, I can tell you doctors and also where to rent movies, the best playrooms, where the fish are located, and where the  Ronald McDonald room is so you can get free snacks! I can tell you what restaurants deliver and which ones are just way overpriced and the best flavor of icecream at the Ben and Jerry's in the hospital. I can also tell you that the nurses love the cookies from the Subway in the food court, so to suck up you can buy them a platter for $5.00.

My child can tell the nurses she wears the green pajamas ( sized by color) to save them time from trying to figure out what size to get her and she can tell you exactly where the crayons and coloring pages are while waiting for surgery. 

So you just smile and go on. 

Again, you do it because you are a parent. These may not be the greatest MOMENTS, but they are moments and I think it is these moments that have strengthen my faith, kept my marriage together, and have made me a better mommy. So... ENJOY THE MOMENT!

( and the icecream as Paislee did)